lots of blog stuff to blog about?

yup, but what? idk. got a lot of topics i thot i cld work on on the way home tdy.. and on the way out (to meet C) and on the way back again :S. but as usual, ive forgotten most of what i wanted to talk about. maybe whine about how tired i am???? :S

brrrs.

so anyways, yes. saw lots of nj juniors when i was on 171 gg out jz nw. one stop before nj, yes the ny stop, i saw this ip girl get on the bus. i recognise her frm her ip days when wanda n sabu n her hung out tgt or sth like tt. i mean, yea i rmb her frm her ip days wid the "ip kids" so we called them. then it suddenly hit me *once again* that hey. the "ip kids" have now graduated frm nj! oh my stars. which means they've spent 4yrs in nj. i mean, finished spending their 4yrs in nj. which also means that i am alr two years away frm nj!

and counting by 2008 - (please read the sign as "minus") 2005, it's been 3yrs!!!! i feel so O-L-D. then saw some ppl still wearing nj uniforms get up the bus d nxt stop (the nj side gate stop) and i cldnt help but think again... geeees it's been 3 friggin' years since i looked like a stone? oh my stars. time has been really really unforgiving. where has time gone? flown right out the window without my realising it again? and come to think of it, it's coming to the end of my second yr in nie! hai. where has my time gone? dear dear dear time, can you slow down a little? just a little? so i can enjoy my youth a little more? please? pretty pretty pretty please???


was reading this story on kctan's blog.. (yes, i did in actual fact check out kctan's blog. and his 文笔 is really gd lo...... i feel so friggin' inferior. maybe i should set up a blog entirely in chinese too? hmmmmmm.............. *ponders**stroke beard as if it were existent*) i was so 感动. by the truth of the love shining through, it's like you feel the quintessential essence of the love that they share, and even as outsiders, bystanders, strangers, you can feel that deep bond between them.

i think everyone longs for that kind of love, the kind that you will hold on to forever.. the kind that may seem dull, non-existent, boring, and dry.. but in actual fact is the most lasting, most bonded kind of love and relationship. how many times in our flippant youth do we mistake excitement to be true love? that we oversee the fact that having an exciting courtship, or a "romantic" courtship, or a relationship filled with passion and angst is not equal to holding love? to having true true true love that flows between the two of you like liquid crystal?

i really admire and envy my parents. they've been married so long (27years) and yet, though they don't show their affection so much i.e. they don't hug and kiss and everything that we see young couples do in public nowadays and they don't really show what they feel, and you rarely ever hear them say that to each other, but somehow even as a bystander you can feel the deep bond that they share. a simple brush of mom's hand on daddy's knee, how they poke fun of each other's linguistic mistakes at times (peeps, nw u noe, i gt it partly frm home too! :S) it's just so .. sweet!

is this what i've been searching for? is this how i want my own relationship to be like? maybe it is. it seems so perfect to me. but i noe my parents have been through quite a lot to get here and to be together. i dont think maternal grandmama liked the idea of mommy marrying daddy. but oh wells. they're there now and thats what matters i guess. what's most important? they're them. and i wouldnt accept them any other way :) im glad tt my parents are my parents i guess. :) no matter what happened in the past, im who i am because of how they've moulded me. and i'm so grateful to them for doing all they can to bring us up despite all the adverse circumstances acting against their favour. it's time for me to do something for them now.


-judge me not for who i was before, but for who i am now-
and i am nobody but me.