1) to learn to let go. i mean, really, really let go. and really forget. i cant seem to forget. i dont know what im holding on for. a lost cause? i really dont.
2) to concentrate on my work at hand. i have not started doing the essay. and im preparing to go to bed nw. cos im so tired. i guess everything's that been weighing on my mind has really been a huge load and burden on my psycho.
3) to be clear about what i have to do. no means no. do not indulge yourself any further yixin. do not indulge. you will only hurt yourself and the others around you who mean the best for you.
hai. so many things have been on my mind. i just can't concentrate on what i have to do. i really need to do what i need to do but i just can't seem to be able to do it. but i will do it. i will i will i will. cos i have to.
i guess you can say that this is the first time since i was 14 that there is no "guy" in my life for this (short) amount of time. no guy chasing me/expressing interest in me/with me.. like, absolutely none. at all. it feels good in a way, somehow. i have to say thanks to kw for accompanying me tho.. and distracting me from stuffs.. stuffs that i have no wish to think about. not atm. i guess u cld say, that i never felt free-er to be myself or something like that. urgh. it's a weird feeling. its nt gd, its nt bad. its a weird feeling that i havent felt for .. 7 years. yes, 7 years. since sec2. hai.
-going back to being yixin- *wink*
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