loved,
lost,
lived.
hell yea. ive lived. :) n im still living.
i rmb telling my cousins hw i am really grateful for going through my sec sch days as i went through it. that period of time, tho dark for me, was, i guess, the period of time i truly "lived". i experienced life as it is i guess. tears, pain, wretchedness, desperation, near depression, happiness, yadayadayada. it was the only period of time i ever entertained thoughts of suicide. yes, i did entertain thoughts of suicide then. cos everything was just so hard.
but it was the only time and the last time, as i promised myself. and ill definitely keep to that promise cos seriously, though we are sole creatures in a lonely world, we are bonded to the other sole creatures too. and in our shared solitude, we find happiness, strength, courage, chivalry and kindness. the worst times brings out both the worst and the best in us creatures living in dreadful solitude.
i was lucky. i saw the best in the people around me (though i saw the worst too) guess it is our own choice as lonely creatures to choose whether to focus on the silver lining or on the dark cloud. sometimes the silver lining is really hard to see when the cloud's so dark.. but then i look around the sky and there are silver clouds all around.. sure they're further out there, a little longer time is taken, much harder to reach out for. but heys, why settle for silver lining if u can reach the silver clouds? even if i fail to reach the silver clouds, id have passed by rainbows and gained a lot of experience. and i know i will be fuller because of those experiences.
so yes, though the road will be tougher, longer, and more treacherous, but i'd like to still die trying than never to have tried at all :)
i know it's an old-drop-tooth (think chi, ppl) analogy. but i guess it works. dont wanna keep staring at that closed door when another one's been opened behind me (and one that may lead to an even better place too!) ;)
yes. yixin will stand up. and (quoting mrchew) "Rise to the occasion!!" looooool. nah. yixin will be alright. she'll learn, she'll get more experience, she'll be a fuller person each time she gets knocked down. i'm strong cos i eat spinach!! no, really. i eat spinach. it's just about the only green leaf i eat (im such a fussy eater u see)
see? if there are little kids out there, rmb wor! yixin jiejie is strong cos she eat spinach! like popeye the sailor man! so muz rmb to eat ur spinach wors! :) (im crazy. simply me. simply crazy)
yes. i guess the irritating public transport users shall have to come in a less crazy post later on :)
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