To: Princess

To Princess:

heyss.. :) I'm not hurting myself if thats what you mean, and ive alr been to the doc's this morning.. as for skipping meals, i dont do that often. its not a chronic thing. the chronic thing is the problems that my stomach is giving me and yes, the doc said "when necessary" so, actually, tho taking myself off the meds is a conscious decision made on my part, if necessarily so, i will still take the meds so no worries.

ppl who are worried? lets see about that some time then :) but i guess my friends and family do know me well enough to know that i will stand up strong enough to face anything that comes in my path. after all, ive walked through stuff worse than this. much, much worse. i will be fine. all it takes is some time :) i know i always say im not as strong as i look, which is true too, but i know im strong enough to be able to take everything that life throws at me in my stride. im short, but my stride is quite big u noe? ;) i can walk pretty fast for a short girl! :)

-smiles-

i hope he takes gd care of you tho :) and stop breaking ur heart. u're a good girl. i really hope he'll cherish you. and be a gd bf to u. not only up till may, but for as long as you guys are tgt. which i hope will be for a long time. if nt, it'll all be wasted on my side wldnt it? :P



since you let go, then be strong, girl. be strong. no more tears now, girl. no more tears.. i wasn't selfish. isnt this what you've been doing all this time girl? you've done the exact same thing for ur gan mei 4yrs ago.. it hurt too didnt it? but still u walked through everything. everything. you've walked thru ur dark sec sch days, girl. it was the darkest moments of ur life rmb? bt u walked through all that. everything's ok, girl. everything's gonna be just fine. take some time, recover urself, u always tell this to other ppl when they come to u with their problems isnt it? life goes on. it does. life goes on. wld u rather have been selfish? i didnt think so. what would it have mattered? what would it have helped? nth. it would only cause you more pain. so don't think anymore about it girl. no more tears now... no more ...




got a new round of meds frm my doc this morning. hai. *shakes head* still feeling pukish. tho i took the med just now. which probably means this round of med nt strong enough? so yea. tml i shall post a post on public transport etiquette or sth like tt :P cos some ppl really pissed me off on the bus tdy.


dont think about it anymore. no more. no more. no more.

-renewed determination-